...you never know exactly how you will handle the loss of a friend until it happens. Whether expected or not, its a devestating feeling to realize how precious life really is. I knew several months ago that Amy was not expected to live...her battle with breast cancer was futile, but I still had that unrealistic hope that with her positive attitude and extreme will to live, maybe a miracle would happen. She was too young (same age as me), too full of life, too determined--to not beat this horrible disease. I never saw her one time in the last 16 months that she has been fighting this, that she didn't have a smile on her face and a string of jokes coming out of her mouth. She laughed in the face of death....she was going to make it! Hearing the news yesterday that Amy had passed away was one of the hardest things I've ever had to hear. I've lost loved ones in the past but never someone close to my age. Its hard to process that someone I went to school with, that I knew since kindergarten...could really be gone. We are too young to have to deal with this. We were such a close class anyway (only 24 kids in our graduating class), its almost like losing a sister.
I fight with my urge to be angry with God...how could he take someone so young from us? I try to understand why? And I know he always has a plan..well, I can already see it a little bit. In her death, our classmates are brought closer again with our common bond of sadness. I've talked to people that I had graduated with that I hadn't talked to in years. More people in her life are aware of the horrible disease of breast cancer and are doing things about it. I know Amy's illness brought her family so much closer together...in a way I'd never seen before. I am realizing how precious life really is...needing to make sure everyone I love knows it! I will hug them all a little tighter, let them know I love them every chance I get, and never take my friends and family for granted. I'm sure there is more to see as I work through this grieving process but for now, I know Amy is no longer in pain, is looking down on us all, and knowing Amy--she might be spewing out a few dirty jokes to all the other angels.
Amy--you will be missed more than words can say! You are a hero--bigger than life! I love you and will miss you with all my heart!
I fight with my urge to be angry with God...how could he take someone so young from us? I try to understand why? And I know he always has a plan..well, I can already see it a little bit. In her death, our classmates are brought closer again with our common bond of sadness. I've talked to people that I had graduated with that I hadn't talked to in years. More people in her life are aware of the horrible disease of breast cancer and are doing things about it. I know Amy's illness brought her family so much closer together...in a way I'd never seen before. I am realizing how precious life really is...needing to make sure everyone I love knows it! I will hug them all a little tighter, let them know I love them every chance I get, and never take my friends and family for granted. I'm sure there is more to see as I work through this grieving process but for now, I know Amy is no longer in pain, is looking down on us all, and knowing Amy--she might be spewing out a few dirty jokes to all the other angels.
Amy--you will be missed more than words can say! You are a hero--bigger than life! I love you and will miss you with all my heart!
1 comment:
Oh, girl! That is so sad! I had a really good friend from HS killed in a motorcycle accident when I was a senior! It doesn't seem fair that someone so young can die! Big hugs to you and all of her friends and family! She is in a much better place now, with no pain! I love you, girly!
Tiffany
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